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Monday, 27 October 2008

  • i don't have anything to write. i'm just doing this to pass the time. i can't believe that i used to write on this every day, pouring my heart and soul out so that you readers could take it all in, drunk with my fiery passion - or lack there of. i don't know.

    "wow, that's weird shit."

    so yeah. this is it, i guess. my attempt to become creatively awake again. aware. aroused. whatever you want to call it, it's all the same to me. i think my problem is that i can't think of things to write about if i am happy. but lately i've been in such a slump that i had nothing in me to motivate me to write. that's it. the difference between now and then isn't INdifference, like i thought...it's that i'm actually depressed. yes. before i was angst driven and brimming with teenage hormones. now i'm mellow, still outrageous with energy, but not in the mood for all the bullshit that i fed off of before.

    yeah...even that was hard to do...

Wednesday, 12 July 2006

  • summer time, and the livin's easy

    i'm in the WHEE for the summer. i'll be back in the pines around august 5 or 6. not exactly how i pictured myself spending my first college-summer, but at least i'm having fun. i just realized that i haven't been to the beach in a LOOOONG time. i didn't go last summer because i was too busy working or ditching work to hang out with my boyfriend and friends. and now i'm taking one 2 hr. class every day for 5 more weeks. wow, i'm lame.

    i'm in a movie. haha, well, sort of. the movie that lew is working on had some shots downtown on the 4th, and the director asked me if i'd be okay with being filmed (duh, yes!) so the cameraman told me to just chill out until they needed me. i did, and then as soon as i answered a phone call - mid convo - they start shooting me. oh well, i was hott and pimpin' my aviators better than hunter s. could've done. well, okay so ALMOST as good.

    i miss my friends. i feel like the longer i'm up here the further some of them get from me. i'm missing crucial events and precious memories. i remember just being a call away, and now i'm 5 hours away. it sucks sometimes. and its not that they're not good friends for losing interest in someone who isn't even there, just they know that there's no point in putting their lives on hold for months at a time. sometimes i wish that i was closer, but mostly i just wish they were all up here with me.

    love, and fucking call me dammit! i miss phone convos :o)
    -lucy

Tuesday, 14 March 2006

Saturday, 03 December 2005

  • what the hell were we thinking?

    i read all of the things we did/said/thought so long ago and i am baffled. how could we live like that? painsticken, lovesick, lost. can't we love without being sick? why must we have pain? i understand that the joy of life is in the journey, but must we be sad while we find our place in this world? i'm content with living one day at a time and enjoying every second. there. i said it. i'm happy. and i'm confused at why everyone else is so afraid of that word.

    a while ago - not so far in my past - someone told me that they loved me and they had to give me something. what was it? a broken heart? fear of all men? fear of love? anger? well, truthfully, i got all of those. and more. but i'm better now. thank you for helpng me grow. i'm still curious as to what you had in store for me. maybe some things are better left unsaid/left alone.

    i love you. always. i'm not in love with you. but i still love you.

Monday, 28 November 2005

  • ..::home sweet home::..

    well, it's good to be back at wcu. i missed all of my friends - and especially lew. now i can get back into the routine i've grown accustomed to: class, class, class...yay.

    ..::peeps::..

    i got to see so many people when i was home. even the ones i didn't want to, and the ones that i didn't think wanted to see me. i saw xtina, jess, philip, justin, duncan, rickey, max, steph, chris, amanda, trey, shannon, brittany, joe, donny, shane, stevo, kevin, fino, seago, kwong, heather, ashley, william...gosh that's a bunch!!!

    ..::oh yeah::..

    just in case you want to know...i thought i was pregnant - but i'm not :o) YAY

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